I think that God always knew this baby was meant for us. I think he is why I went through 15 months of negative pregnancy tests and I think that is why when I found out it was going to be even longer, more doctors appointments, more medications for BOTH of us... I think God knew what was going on all along (This is an emotional post..FYI)
What have I done to deserve this? He is perfect, he is beautiful, he is OURS.
People don't go through the adoption process this quickly. People don't just decide to adopt, pray, get matched, and bring a baby home in three months... but we did.. why?
I'll never know why God put him in our lives but he did. And I am forever thankful. It takes courage to bring in another race. I know some people had trouble accepting it, but with a child.. I do not see color. We requested another race, we wanted the most needed child, which was an African American male.
Everytime I look at him I praise God. I am now a mother and Cory is a father. Together we will raise a child, love a child, and teach a child. After this experience I have realized how many loved ones we have around us... The hundreds of people who "liked", messaged, called, commented on things, and most importantly, the number of people that prayed is overwhelming.
Every few hours I cried... afriad he wasn't ours... afriad of what the outcome would be. But then I would check my phone and cry harder because I do not feel that I deserve to be loved this much. And it was amazing to know that if this was going to be a failed adoption, there were hundreds of people praying to lift us up so we could try again.
So, I want to thank you. Carter is the outcome of our faith and your prayers.
On 11/12/13 at 3:45 PM we were given rights to this baby boy. He is now a Hamby... he is now our son.
You don't know me, my name is Janine and I stumbled upon your blog when a FB friend of mine commented on your page. I was intrigued. I have read your story and you are amazing. God is so good! Congrats on baby Carter! He is gorgeous! Your spirit and positive nature, and your unfailing faith, throughout such an emotional journey are such a testament. I have two babies, both boys and they are 1 and 3 years old. Both prayed for, both fertility babies. Our oldest was a nicu babe, had to go to SFMC in Cape because WBH didn't have the nicu yet. I fell in love with his nurses there! Sorry, side note...
ReplyDeleteAnyways, congrats again and I have been touched by your story and felt compelled to tell you. And 11/12/13 at 3:45 is quite the awesome "gotcha" date/time for Carter to be YOURS! ;)