Wait, wait, wait

It has been about 36 hours since the birth mother viewed our profile. What went through her head? Did she like us? Did she say absolutely not when she saw our profile? I have no idea. Wednesday felt like the longest day ever. That was the day the agency presented our profile to her and there was a possibility we could find out that night. I thought the next few days were going to be so long and nerve racking, but I'm thinking I was wrong. I have leaned and put every ounce of faith in God. I have prayed and I have asked for requests and I have been pushed into scripture and grown a very strong relationship with The Lord. As hard as it will be to hear she did not pick us, if that happens I know I will believe it was because this wasn't our "perfect match" and it wasn't Gods match. 

At first I wanted prayer request for Cory and I but now I realize that this mother needs prayer. She needs prayer to maintain the heroic decision that she has already made for her son and prayer that she will have the strength and knowledge to make the right decision as find Gods match for her.

If you have a moment will you pray with us? Pray for us? And pray for the mother?

I hope I can give you the best update ever soon, well just have to wait and see! 

Our first presentation to a mother

I cut off some of the information, but this is a photo of what I saw on our website... Yes a BOY, yes he's Haitian, and YES we want him! He is due Nov 11, 2013! 

So. I contacted the agency, left a voicemail, sent an email and quickly called my consultant. Tracie was amazing and quickly told me what all to get together! The contacted me the following day, TODAY and gave us all the mothers information and background. The whole situation is PERFECT!! I feel God has led us here and this match is for us! We will see! Chris, from the agency was the sweetest woman ever and told us what to send and Cory and I ran to FedEx and overnighted the goodies! We will know any day if she says yes or no to us... I'm praying.... I'm praying this is our match and I'm praying for the strength if we do not get picked and I pray that God makes it crystal clear to the mother and leads her to the right decision. I know Gods timing is perfect so I am ready when he is! 

This is an exciting update to share with you. Please pray with us!!! 

9-19-13 HOMESTUDY APPROVED

It took a little over a month and we FINALIZED our home study! This was one of the most exciting steps because it officially allowed us to be eligible for baby Carter! We are now done with paperwork until we get matched with a birthmom. I pray this will be soon, but I know God has a reason and his timing will be perfect! I took some photos of our completed homestudy! WOO HOO!

Carter's Nursery is complete. All we need is our sweet boy!

 

Some people may say I am crazy for going ahead and doing this, but we could get him ANY day... Yes, we may go through failed adoptions and it may take a year, or two, or more... or it may take one day. WHO KNOWS? But going into this nursery and walking by it every day gives my hope. It gives me faith that one day, I will be a mother and a sweet boy will be in that room. The decision to buy baby items and complete a nursery has helped me and made this "adoption pregnancy" more real. 

Cory put up the crib, so kuddos to him! Chelsea and I handmade nearly everything in baby Carter's nursery. The time spent on this was sooo worth it! Not only did it build mine and Chelsea's friendship, but it made the nursery SO special knowing mommy helped make it!

9-25-13 Out of our hands and into Gods

Today was an exciting/emotional/ and overwhelming day! We chose 4 agencies (in addition to the ones our consultant will get referrals from) and sent of multiple copies of our home study and profiles. We literally are done with the everything until we get matched with a birth mom!!

*organizing everything*

This is an exciting step but also a testing step. I have prayed so hard for Gods strength. We could get "the call" tomorrow or a year from now. We may get selected and our birth mom may change her mind and we will have to deal with the emotional loss. I know God led us down the adoption path for a reason and I pray he provides Cory and I with the strength and knowledge to make the right decision. And of course, I pray that there is a match QUICKLY! 

We have sent profiles to Florida, Utah, Texas and will possibly send some to Arizona! Come on baby Carter! Momma and daddy are ready to meet you!!! 

DAYS away from being on the waiting list

Our social worker is sending the final documents to our home study agency TOMORROW. Within three days we will probably hear from them to review and FINALIZE!! This means we are READY. Yes, Home study ready, baby ready, ready, ready, ready!!! Our sweet consultant, Tracie Loux is a superstar and made our profile for us. I am posting a sneak peak! This is the profile full of information about or lives that will be presented to the birthmom and she will use this to pick us. We have raised money from our pocket tee sales and I was able to use it to purchase our profiles and pay application fees for the agencies so THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU! Every penny goes a long way and I cannot express how thankful I am for all of you who have donated by purchasing an item or donated by saying a prayer for us. I will keep you updated this week with any new news!!!

Adoption Love

One thing that has been so comforting throughout this process is the decrease in wanting something so bad... Because I'm getting it. My whole life I imagined what it would be like to get married and have my first child. I imagined a beautiful pregnancy full of nights begging Cory to run and get me pickles and ice cream when I wanted it and I imagined looking beautiful (as beautiful as myself could get haha)  and having the pregnancy "glow." I always thought pregnancy was the most beautiful thing God allowed a person to go through. 

I've known for years that adoption was meant for me, but the timing I did not. How was I supposed to know when to adopt? Do you have biological first? Do you have a biological at all?  Fears of bonding and not carrying a baby crossed my mind at the beginning. Fortunately, I don't even think about "being pregnant." I am pregnant, in a different way. I am expecting a baby and have the opportunity to prepare a nursery, make the decision of a name with my husband, and prepare myself to be the Godly mother God has called me to be. The strength God has given me blows me away.

After fourteen long months I have no worries. Yes, things are going to be hard, especially with school and work but I have the most amazing family and friends a person could ask for (yes I am crying right now) and I have The Lord who will continue to give me strength. 

This decision God has led us to has been the biggest blessing in my life and we don't even have the best part of it yet. 

Why am I writing this? I really don't know,  ha! I just know that the time is coming... The time to get "the call" and fly to whatever state necessary. The time to be terrified about whether or not the birth mom will change get mind, and the time The Lord comes and says "it's okay, I know the plans I have for you." The time to ask our community to pray for the birth mother and us, and the time to bring the baby home in our arms....forever. I found some scriptures that I read almost daily to remind me of Gods calling and how wonderful this journey will be. In about 10  days we finalize the paperwork by reviewing the typed home study and then we wait... We wait for "the call."